The Lipstick Writing is on the Mirror

Wandering through a brain-fog trying to find the words. Following the tune I hear so clearly coming from the birds. The rain falls all around me, still trying to find the trail.  Through a fog I cannot see, longing to set sail.  No matter where I go, it's the same as where I've been... Driving me insane.  Will I ever see the sun again? Does brightness ever reign?  April 24th, 2024 By: Alanda McRae

 Always looking for a thrill while sitting on the windowsill. Dressed to kill, but too exhausted for fun, I stand by the wall 'til my friends are done. Nothing really draws me in, and I need to trick my mind. like a table to my shin, it never turns out kind. my eyes flutter closed  of their own accord. fighting for the supposed love and happiness no one can afford.

"  My Heart" by Alanda McRae. Life is a party, that's what they tell me. Life is a dance way, they said yesterday. I hear the owls speaking; I hear their forever question... I hear the blue jays singing, and I know life will go on. Will I ever see you again? Will I be in your arms? No matter where they take you, or where you've been, you'll forever be in my heart... I hope to see you once more, I wish I could say goodbye. As you walked out the door, I couldn't help but cry...

Rainbow April 24th, 2004 Chorus: Our life is a rainbow if we let it be. A colorful show, happy and free There's a color everyday and at every crossroad. I still don't know what to say when I think about the waves. Bridge: At the end of every rainbow, somewhere there's a pot of gold. And it will show, if you do as your instincts have told. Chorus x1 Bridge x1 Chorus x3

A Hopeless Guy March 18th, 2004

You Are My Heartbreak June 11th, 2003 You know what you mean to me. You know the truth when it's seen. Why did you leave me here alone? Why did you see the need to be gone? Why aren't you  here with me... Where you need to be? My life is nothing without you. I can't help it, you are the virtue. You are my heart and soul. You are apart of me. I love you, can't you see? I'm right for you and you're right for me... 

Wish It Didn't Matter March 23rd, 2004

Non-understandable April 28th, 2004 Chorus: Boys are so complicated, never understand what they say. Feels like I've been jaded - every day. They can't come out and tell you what they mean. They can't say it right.  They aren't exactly what they seem. They only wanna fight. (( Chorus x1 )) They give you mixed messages; they're always inconsistent.  They should be put in c@ges,* because you never know their intent.  (( Chorus x1)) They don't give a shit if you don't wanna drink alchohol. They only wanna kiss and control.  (( Chorus x3 ))

Later Days! April 2nd, 2004

Time April 2nd, 2004 Runnin' outta time, gonna lose my mind. You were mine, and you used to be kind. We're runnin' outta time...

Rainy Day April 2nd, 2004 Walking in the rain, towards the waterfall. Nothing's been the same, nothing at all. You told me we'd never be apart, because we were one.  Then you broke my heart, and now I'm crying with no Sun. I thought you loved me, I thought you cared. Now I see... that you lied and were never fair.

 You April 2nd, 2004 Waling through a field of gold. Thinking about you. Should've done what my instincts told, now I don't know what to do. To me, silver & gold he gave - but I wanted more.  I didn't want anything save that you'd walk back through the door.

 Same Old Is Told August 5th, 2003 Walking down the street, same old - same old. Everyone I meet is told - is told. Nobody knows what I've gone through. No one even cares.  Out of all my friends, only a few are there. Walking down the street, same old - same old. Everyone I meet is told - is told.  You're gone from my life, you're gone - you're gone... You thought my heart'd been stabbed with a kn*fe, but you're wrong, so wrong. Walking down the street, same old - same old. Everyone I meet is told - is told. All you ever did was drink beer, all you did was leave and roam. Don't you ever come back here, and don't think of this as home. Walking down the street, same old - same old. Everyone I meet is told - is told. 

"Mary, Mary, Quite contrary" Is what they all would say.  It'd end up giving me a very, Very Bad Day! They teased & picked,  Were never nice.  One day a guy got me ticked,  And he expected ME to pay the price! I told him to screw off; I'd better things to do with my time! He invited me to his loft,  And I said I had to get back to mine... Next day at school,  They were nice to me... Turns out they thought I was cool.  You do the same and they will, you'll see...

It's just a thought  Merely passin' through my mind.  But I'll give it a shot,  I'll let you see me shine....  I got a spotlight - just for me. It's outside - shining so brightly...  Comes out every morning...  Lights up the sky...  Yeah the sun is shining like a spotlight just for me....  Sets my soul a-soarin' free.  When it's stormin' outside, it's like strobe lights.  Strobe lightning on a dance floor  Happens every night  and it leaves me beggin' for more.  When day & night collide  with drummin' in the background,  Fills me up pride.  Makes me feel bona fide.  Can't get me down with all this around.  Energy. brilliance. oh so bright.  Echoes. acoustics. fills up the night.  It breathes, it breeds, it shines, it sings.  It astounds & does everything.  Yeah, you gotta love all these sounds... (x2)  'Cuz, baby, you know they're all around. (fades out)  ~Alan...

 she turns up the radio even though it's just the weather. sleeps with maracas under her pillow... and says things like "it won't matter." she cuts her own hair without a mirror and leaves the house with no eyeliner on. people say she lacks structure. but she's really just having fun... she sings in the grocery aisle regardless of the strangers in the store. givers everyone a smile; they don't understand. what she's dancing for. she walks in the rain, watching the lightning play. people thinks she's insane, so they stay out of her way. barefoot in the snow, she keeps on walking... with everything she knows, she don't care about all their talkin'. outcast from an early age, she has lots to resent... but she just turns the page... yeah, she dares to be different. in recent memory, no one can recall another like her. it's hard to believe, but this is about who I see in the mirror. Search your memory and you'll see... Yeah... this song is a...

  Hurricane in my soul.  Rainbows gone dark. Feeling like a fool  because I have a broken heart.  Chaos and pain overwhelm make me feel crazy. Take the helm and don't rephrase me. Hear my voice, my words for what they truly are. Don't belittle my choices, I need to be heard. Stop painting over my scars. Energy and inertia battle out 'til I don't know when I'll win it. Unsure what's about my broken soul. Breathe in, relax... Breathe out... Focus. Focus. Focus...